Surviving the Fight or Fighting to Survive
Be the change that you want to see
Hi guys, I know it has been a while since I wrote on here but I had to get away and clear my head, plus avoid some people until the dust had settled. Since separating from my long term partner, I have been trying to re-discover myself, try to seriously make something out of my hobbies/talents.
One part of that was modeling. I started messaging photographers, and replying to casting calls. I hadn't met any photographers that I particularly trusted when I came across Rule the Runway UK . I applied, but didn't expect it to go far because I am only 5 foot 4 inches tall and have no experience. I did it anyway, because it's my dream and also because it is a charity event in aid of raising mental health awareness and raising money for Birmingham Mind.
But I got a casting call! So I went, nervous and anxious as hell, but I had the support of my best friend who also applied after I told her about it. So I walked the walk, answered their questions and came away feeling pretty positive and very excited.
Then I got through! After fidgeting the entire of the following day, picking up my phone, trying to distract myself hopelessly, they called to tell me the good news. Out of hundreds that applied, I was one of the 20 girls that they wanted in the show! ME! Just little old me. I did it! I couldn't believe it.
We had our photo shoot for the voting stage of the competition on sunday. Having hair, and make-up done, it was manic and hectic and at times not going to plan and there was a lot of waiting to be behind the camera for all of about 3 minutes but I absolutely loved every moment! Whilst people were getting agitated and frustrated, I reveled in it. It all felt so surreal. Like I was dreaming, I swear I actually pinched myself a couple of times.
The photo's went up online for voting to start yesterday and my eyes popped out of my head and my mouth hung open when I realised that they used MY face for the cover! ME! I can't believe it I really can't. And they have used my photo for their website.
It just goes to show, that even if you don't think you are beautiful, somebody else will. Whether it's your mom, your boyfriend, your kids, or a complete stranger. You are beautiful to somebody, so just be yourself, because if you try to change to make others happy, then you will always be changing. You will never make everybody happy.
I'm trying to be the change I want to be. Allow myself to do the things I have always been told I couldn't do or didn't believe I could achieve. I want to be able to get to a place where I am happy with who I am. So I'm surviving the fight and fighting to survive. Just like the rest of you. x
Click HERE if you wish to vote for me. You can vote once per day, per IP address. :)
One part of that was modeling. I started messaging photographers, and replying to casting calls. I hadn't met any photographers that I particularly trusted when I came across Rule the Runway UK . I applied, but didn't expect it to go far because I am only 5 foot 4 inches tall and have no experience. I did it anyway, because it's my dream and also because it is a charity event in aid of raising mental health awareness and raising money for Birmingham Mind.
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| My photo from the audition. |
But I got a casting call! So I went, nervous and anxious as hell, but I had the support of my best friend who also applied after I told her about it. So I walked the walk, answered their questions and came away feeling pretty positive and very excited.
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| The voting photo. |
We had our photo shoot for the voting stage of the competition on sunday. Having hair, and make-up done, it was manic and hectic and at times not going to plan and there was a lot of waiting to be behind the camera for all of about 3 minutes but I absolutely loved every moment! Whilst people were getting agitated and frustrated, I reveled in it. It all felt so surreal. Like I was dreaming, I swear I actually pinched myself a couple of times.
The photo's went up online for voting to start yesterday and my eyes popped out of my head and my mouth hung open when I realised that they used MY face for the cover! ME! I can't believe it I really can't. And they have used my photo for their website.
I'm trying to be the change I want to be. Allow myself to do the things I have always been told I couldn't do or didn't believe I could achieve. I want to be able to get to a place where I am happy with who I am. So I'm surviving the fight and fighting to survive. Just like the rest of you. x
Click HERE if you wish to vote for me. You can vote once per day, per IP address. :)
